i wonder where you are now, probably sleeping. i wonder how are you and how is life? i miss you like crazy dad. i wish you never left, i wish mum wasn't that stubborn that made you leave. often i have the urge to look you up at your work place i know where but you have stuff to do, i want to listen to your voice so much but you only call once or twice a week, i want to talk to you so friggin much but i just dont know what to say. omg dad i miss you, please come back.
I've got so much to tell you, so much to show you, so much to learn from you. i miss playing badminton with you, i know used to suck at it but i've improved, i'll show you. Dad you're not young anymore, please take care of yourself, I'm really sorry i often show you my attitude on the phone, i'm really sorry for pissing you off when i was younger.
I'm sorry for what i've become today, smokes, drinks, stays out late, tattooed. My performance isnt very good in school and i need to stay back for half a year, i really don't know how to break the news to you and mum, dad i'm such a disgrace, please forgive me.
Thank you for my 18th birthday party, it costed a bomb and i really appreciate that.Thank you for teaching me how to do my D&T artifact when i was in sec one, i screwed that piece up, the dowel i used was too long and i hammered it right thru my artifact, the feeling upon seeing that is exactly how the wood must have felt, something sharp that pierced thru your heart. thank you for the pocket money all this time, i'm such a spendthrift, money would never be save in my hands, girls, cigarettes, booze.
Dad i'm going for national service next year, the navy most probably, i think, they sent my countless letters and i finally replied, the pay is 1.7k per month and will increase till1.8k after P.O.P. But there's a downside, i'll be out at sea, a few months at a go.
Dad, i swear i'm going buy a big house and get you to stay with us, by hook or by crook. At the very least, you'll be passing away by our sides. Dad i love you so much, seriously, i've never felt this way until only recently, your greying hair. i used to look up and talk to you, but now i need look down abit, Oh dad... i have so much to say to you, but words arent that easy to come out thru the mouth so this is the only way of expressing myself, hopefully someone passes by and passes this letter to you.
I love you dad, i miss you badly too, i'm sorry for Norman's super bad attitude when he's talking to you, yet you still pass him money on a few occasions.
Dad, please come back to us quick, i need you, WE all need you, you take care k dad?
love you much more den i can ever love a girl.
Love from the deepest pits of my heart and subconcious,
Noel.
Sunday, september 23, 3007
